A Desire for Fame

What's being famous like? I don't know and I certainly wouldn't mind to be one of the people that when you walk down the street. people just recognize you.

The bored me taking a selfie...

To me being famous is like when you walk around somewhere, wind just blows through your face and hair and make your hair fly (That's just the idea I have from all those movies that I watched.) Those kind of feeling when you're just walking and looking straight but everyone that walk towards you just stares at you and turn back to look at you when their already way past behind you. It's even better if you're in a group and everyone just stares at your group.

Something like that.. Which most probably won't be happening to me in my life. LOL

The reason i'm blogging nowadays, I guess it's because sometimes I have no one to vent my feelings to so I guess being a blogger allows me to rant it all in here. Well, no doubt I have an insatiable need for audiences in my life and attention from people around me. Pffftt that doesn't mean i'm an attention seeker.

When i'm with my friends, i'm usually the listener and adviser. I love listening to people and giving them advises but I find that I can't really share my problems or thoughts with anyone. Sometimes i'm feeling emotionally down but to my friends, it seems that I don't have any problems in my life at all. I may appear to be happy go lucky most of the time but sometimes I wish people would just ask me how I really feel.

Come on lah who don't wanna be famous? Being known and recognized is certainly a good thing and definitely will boost up your confidence level. I'm not talking about those celebrity kind of famous but rather just being recognized for something that you've done or special at.

I'll never be a celebrity nor you'll see me in any of the reading materials or TV. Reason being :-

1) I can't act

2) I can't sing

3) I can barely dance

4) I'm too short to be a model (only 177cm)

5) I don't have the look

6) I don't think i'm talented

7) I'm not straight

8) I con't really know how to fake towards the higher ups

Hence, super hard for me to be successful in what i'm trying to achieve but I won't give up. I'ma keep trying until I die. HAHA...

A lot of people told me that if I wanna start a blog, I need to have a brand like if I wanna write about travels, food, fashion etc.. But the thing is that I don't even know what I really wanna write about. I just like being random and just post anything that I want that's going on with my life. Like I said I have a need for audiences to be involved in my life. It's never gonna be enough.

So, there's something I wanna rant about today. Where's all the good Malaysian guys???
Why most of the gays in Penang are bottom? Obviously the good ones are already taken. What happened to the rest? It seems like sex are more important nowadays than getting a stable long term relationship.

Guys here are always saying that they're ready to settle down but once they've met a better one, they'll just go for them. Cheating in a relationship is a norm in this era. (I sound old I know but i'm only 23). Sleeping around when you're single is fine I guess but not when you're attached. So not worth it to risk everything you had just to have a brief moment of excitement.

Some guys are really nice, they cook for you and treat you as if you're the only one but behind you they're doing stuffs that you won't expect they'd be doing. True love is extinct. Being faithful and loyal is gone from humanity. I salute to those who can stay that way and just have one person in their life. Seriously most of the guys nowadays really cannot make it.

Nerds are sexy and attractive, with spectacles, being fair and tall and with a hot body as a bonus. If I ever see that kind of guy I think i'll drool in front of him immediately. Maybe it's just me that couldn't find a good one when everyone else is already living happily ever after.

BBQ King @ Icon City (Bukit Mertajam)

Nowadays in Penang there's so much BBQ and steamboat restaurant. Some are really good and some are just mehhh... Those that're tasty and fresh people won't mind paying for the expensive rate but those that're low quality, they have the guts to charge high prices.

So recently I came across this place in Icon City @ Bukit Mertajam, the price is reasonable. I remembered paying only RM46+ on public holiday and the seafood they offer there is fresh and surely worth what you've paid.

This is the price list for the restaurant. Ain't expensive and it's worth your money. I'll show you why.

As you can see, the ingredients they serve are all fresh and the meats and seafood used for BBQ are well marinated. They even have a section where the sushi are prepared on the spot and just outside the restaurant they have BBQ chicken wings. Too bad I didn't get to take a picture of the sushi station and the BBQ chicken wings station.

At a certain time they serve fresh salmon. 4 pieces per person but it's refillable until they finishes slicing up those few salmons.

Oh yeah and they have a station where all the steamboat ingredients are and another station where the side dishes like fried rice, steamed clams, fried fish etc. Side dishes varies from day to day.

A few of the options that we took :) 

Next picture will be my favorite. PRAWNS !!

Needless to say, the prawns are fresh and the size well most of them are big. 

Side order of Bibimbap :) if you're not sure what bibimbap is, its a signature korean meal where the rice and egg are in the middle and it literally meant mixed rice. So it depends on whats the side dish for the bibimbap because every restaurant use different side dishes for their bibimbap. But its a must to mix everything together and add korean chili sauce into it.

Last but not least the dessert, they serve coconut ice cream and green tea ice cream, nevertheless they do serve some chinese dessert, but I guess for the dessert it might be different every day as well except for the ice creams cause it's from the machine.

Too engrossed in eating so didn't get to take a picture of the drinks and dessert station :(
Strongly recommended for those who likes "eat all you can" style.
The ratings will definitely be 9/10. If you're heading there it's better to make a reservation to avoid getting stuck in the queue.

Christmas in London

London, London, London, definitely is my favorite city in UK or better yet Europe. There's so little time yet so much to see especially during festive season which I did went there on 2015 Christmas for more than a week.

I've been to London more than a dozen times yet I still couldn't get enough of it and wish to go back there again. So, I went there during Xmas and lucky me, I get to experienced Winter Wonderland in London. Unlike the fun fair we have in Malaysia, the one in London is huge and it's located in Hyde Park (very near to Oxford).

I won't post anything on the original London Eye, London Bridge and Big Ben as everyone already knew about those landmarks.

As you can see, that's the entrance to winter wonderland. What I heard from the locals there was that the entrance is designed differently every year. How lucky for those that get to see it every year. It wasn't that cold on that day so the smoke that comes out from my mouth is actually smoke from cigarettes. :) Yup, I do smoke...

A slightly smaller London Eye in the Winter Wonderland. There were a lot of games and rides in the park so we decided to try out the roller coaster which led to my next photo. Super embarrassing..

I thought my face was funny until I really took a look and I saw the face of the lady. That made my day. Everyone literally burst out laughing in front of her. She can't take it anymore and laughed it out loud. Seriously LOL.

A lot to see and eat in the Xmas park but unfortunately I was too engrossed with the atmosphere. Everyone seems so happy and I just didn't wanna distract them by constantly taking pictures of everything. Hmmm, I'm just making up excuses I think.. HAHA..

Now moving on to lunch, walking distance from Winter Wonderland to this restaurant called Gold Mine. One of the famous Chinese restaurant located at Bayswater. It can get really crowded if you are to go after 1pm and it'll get more crowded during dinner time.

If you're thinking of going to this restaurant, order the Peking duck as your appetizer. Their roasted duck, spinach in egg sauce and steamed egg ( 3 kinds of egg are in there, chicken,duck and century egg). These 3 dishes are highly recommended. You won't be disappointed. Trust me :) I'm a foodie :P

After a heavy lunch, time to take a walk around and get on the subway :) Just being my vain self...

Next, Chinatown !! So, after walking around and shopping in Primark we decided to head to Chinatown. Its always populous and I just don't know why. Visited the casino over there. Not bad I must say but compared to the one in Singapore, the one in Marina Bay Sands is way bigger in size and with more class.

If you're planning to shop for clothes, go to Primark. Trust me it'll burn a hole in your pocket. So much of choices there and it's so CHEAP !!! There's two nearby each other, one at Oxford and another at Tottenham Court Road. Don't go to the one in Oxford, chances are there are no more sizes. Not much tourist knows of the existence of Primark at Tottenham Court Road so just head there.

Last but not least, dinner at Burger and Lobster. 20 pounds for a bowl of salad, fries and a big lobster. Totally worth your money. Lobster Roll is on the menu as well but it doesn't taste as good as the steamed lobster. The fragrant of the lobster...yummy...make my mouth water every single time I thought of it. Two ways of cooking your lobster : Grilled or Steamed : so pick your favorite style of having your lobster. Best to go with beers. #JustSaying #YOLO #EnjoyWhileYouStillCan

End of my London trip... Tune in for my next post, will probably talk about hotels or more travels :)

Multinationals in Moscow, Russia.

I realized I have a habit of writing on my blog at night. Humans tend to be emotional when the sun sets. That proves i'm still a human LOL.

So tonight, just wanted to share in my blog about the pictures that we took back in Moscow.

This fountain is called druzhba narodov which also means friendship of nations.
 

 This fountain is really huge and beautiful. Magnificent I must say. The place itself was incredible. A good place to visit at least once in your life and stroll around the garden which will definitely make you feel like you're in a palace's garden.

Just trying to strike a pose... Don't judge :)

I've forgotten whats the name of this landmark but it's walking distance from the friendship of nations fountain. It wasn't a good weather to get a good picture. There's no sun shining on me :(

Literally can't shine bright like a diamond. Not that I'm able to shine but at least the sunlight will definitely make the picture look better.

Next, the topsy turvy house a.k.a the upside down house which is located like 500m away from the fountain. Basically if you're visiting this place there's a lot to see and you definitely won't be disappointed. There's a lot of section in the house so if you wanna beat the crowd and get some pictures without anyone giving you that bitch stare then it's better to go in the morning. They're open from 1000-1900 on weekdays and 1000-2000 on weekends And if you are to go around June there a theme park nearby there as well. There's more pictures but I don't look photogenic in it so i'm not gonna post it. Haha...

Candid shots of me taken by my friends. Random bunch doing some random stuffs. This girl actually sat still for almost an hour just to get her sketching done. If it was for me I think i'll just fell asleep.

I didn't realize there were so many people looking at me.

Lastly, Saint Basil's Cathedral is a must if you're ever going to Moscow. One of the most famous church in the world. Colorful and nothing like the other church that you've seen before. This church is located in red square and from here there's a market where they sell souvenirs and food.

Most importantly, I'm missing this bunch of girls already that were with me for 5 nights in Moscow. We're all from different parts of Asia hence my title although it doesn't make much sense.

From the left, she's Taiwanese (in green blouse) followed by Thai girl (used to be a pageant queen) and me Malaysian.
Next to me,she's from Hong Kong (coffee addict) followed by Singaporean girl pointing her finger and lastly Indonesian girl in black blouse.

There are some people in life that make you laugh a little louder, smile a little bigger and live just a little bit better.

How I wish this could last longer and we will never have to part.

Isn't it just wrong?

I've always believed that if you're seeing someone, you should totally just focus on seeing that person wholeheartedly. But not to this guy that I just know from social media. Yeah i'm gay, I was afraid that people might find out that i'm gay but I don't care anymore. Just wanna be happy being me instead of caring about what others would think of me. If I can't accept myself then who would? I mean why would people even care if someone else is gay? Honestly it's not like I wanted it and i'm just not into pussy. Sometimes I just wish everyone everywhere can just accept two guys holding hands on the street. No one said anything when two girls does the same thing.

So this guy that I just met, he have the guts to tell me that he's actually seeing a few other guys while he's seeing me as well. And he's being a emotional bitch cause he found out that the guy isn't what he think he is. KARMA bitch !! You seriously expect me to console you after you dropped this bomb on me? Muthafucker. Honestly, what makes you think you're that mighty to just keep seeing a few guys even though you're not in a relationship or anything? I'm not trying to judge but this ain't right ! At least not for me... Stop giving me that shit saying that you're not ready for sentimental craps just because of your ex or this other guy that you're seeing. You shouldn't have convinced me that you are looking for something real if you're that type of guy. It's such a waste of time and effort. Time to move on. Seriously players will always be players and liars will always be liars but remember guys, one day KARMA will hit you real bad trust me. I still hope you find your happy ending but I do hope that he'll cheat on you and lie to you in the future as well. Xoxo, love, from your "love therapist"

And another incident this afternoon,
I went for my lunch at KFC. My favorite junk food of all times. Gosh just gives me orgasm all the time.
As I was queuing up to get my delicious crispy chicken and just thinking should I get just 2 pieces or to be greedy and get 3 pieces.
Then this two high school girl queued behind me and started whispering which I overheard their conversation. The whole conversation was in Malay language.

Girl 1 : That guy is cute
Girl 2 : Which guy?
Girl 1 : The one standing in front of us.
Girl 2 : Oh yeah very boyish look.
Girl 1 : Do you think he understands what we're talking about?

Me : Having a thought to myself that I should just ignore them and secretly feel happy as I'm waiting to get my meal.

Girl 2 : I don't think he's from Malaysia
Girl 1 : Yeah maybe he's from other parts of Asia.
Girl 2 : Where do you think he's from?
Girl 1 : I think most probably from Nepal or Philippine.

Me : *Turned to them* Pukimak Cibai motherfucking bimbos, which part of me look like i'm from that part of Asia? Don't just assume. And FYI I do understand Malay, i'm just trying to ignore both of you ignorant little pussies. (Barked at them in Malay)

They ran out from the shop after that. And I lost my appetite. Seriously which part of me looks like i'm from Nepal or Philippine? It's not that i'm discriminating those two country but I just don't like being think that that's where i'm from. I'm just so used to being told that I look like Korean and honestly that makes me feel just ecstatic. Well don't blame me cause Kpop is really in trend nowadays. Kpop Forever !!!

All for the best I hope...

Finally after a few months of suffering from overthinking too much I decided to call it a quit even though there's nothing wrong between us. It's just me feeling insecure again and being delusional. People like me just can't be in a relationship. It'll only hurt myself and the other party. So I really hoped I made the right decision by letting go since most of the time that we were together, we weren't really happy. It's just a mask both of us that's been putting on. It's really funny how our heart can be deceiving. Not just once but more than a couple times. What's more funny is that why do we fall in love so easily? Even when it isn't right...

Ever had a feeling that sometimes its better not to ask too much questions?
Knowing too much, not necessarily will make you happier but if I don't ask and just keep it to myself, I can't even sleep at night. Just gotta get it out of my chest. How does anyone bear with this situation?
Maybe i'm just a coward. Always run away whenever I feel like i'm gonna get hurt emotionally.
Well ain't nobody love to be hurt? I'm just indecisive most of the times. Forget about it ASAP.

To everyone that overcame your insecurities and being successful in your love lives, I really salute you. It ain't hard to achieve that but it ain't easy either. Gotta find some other activities to occupy myself for the time being to rest my case. LOL.

Me being vain on my ride...

So today this  Monsieur here have decided to be a cam whore and took some selfie while driving to work. Trying to relieve myself from all the thought that's been running through my head but just one of my excuses to get a selfie !!! :)
Hahahahahaha. Just being a shameless narcissist trying to give a very cool pose but well EPIC FAIL!! Any good plastic surgeon to recommend? Maybe I should get a nose job or something. 3D eyebrow or whatsoever..
I shall look for some dance classes and start doing some sexy hip hop. Or maybe go for gym hoping to achieve a killer body. :P Anyone know any good dance studio here in Penang? Need some recommendations. :D