A Desire for Fame

What's being famous like? I don't know and I certainly wouldn't mind to be one of the people that when you walk down the street. people just recognize you.

The bored me taking a selfie...

To me being famous is like when you walk around somewhere, wind just blows through your face and hair and make your hair fly (That's just the idea I have from all those movies that I watched.) Those kind of feeling when you're just walking and looking straight but everyone that walk towards you just stares at you and turn back to look at you when their already way past behind you. It's even better if you're in a group and everyone just stares at your group.

Something like that.. Which most probably won't be happening to me in my life. LOL

The reason i'm blogging nowadays, I guess it's because sometimes I have no one to vent my feelings to so I guess being a blogger allows me to rant it all in here. Well, no doubt I have an insatiable need for audiences in my life and attention from people around me. Pffftt that doesn't mean i'm an attention seeker.

When i'm with my friends, i'm usually the listener and adviser. I love listening to people and giving them advises but I find that I can't really share my problems or thoughts with anyone. Sometimes i'm feeling emotionally down but to my friends, it seems that I don't have any problems in my life at all. I may appear to be happy go lucky most of the time but sometimes I wish people would just ask me how I really feel.

Come on lah who don't wanna be famous? Being known and recognized is certainly a good thing and definitely will boost up your confidence level. I'm not talking about those celebrity kind of famous but rather just being recognized for something that you've done or special at.

I'll never be a celebrity nor you'll see me in any of the reading materials or TV. Reason being :-

1) I can't act

2) I can't sing

3) I can barely dance

4) I'm too short to be a model (only 177cm)

5) I don't have the look

6) I don't think i'm talented

7) I'm not straight

8) I con't really know how to fake towards the higher ups

Hence, super hard for me to be successful in what i'm trying to achieve but I won't give up. I'ma keep trying until I die. HAHA...

A lot of people told me that if I wanna start a blog, I need to have a brand like if I wanna write about travels, food, fashion etc.. But the thing is that I don't even know what I really wanna write about. I just like being random and just post anything that I want that's going on with my life. Like I said I have a need for audiences to be involved in my life. It's never gonna be enough.

So, there's something I wanna rant about today. Where's all the good Malaysian guys???
Why most of the gays in Penang are bottom? Obviously the good ones are already taken. What happened to the rest? It seems like sex are more important nowadays than getting a stable long term relationship.

Guys here are always saying that they're ready to settle down but once they've met a better one, they'll just go for them. Cheating in a relationship is a norm in this era. (I sound old I know but i'm only 23). Sleeping around when you're single is fine I guess but not when you're attached. So not worth it to risk everything you had just to have a brief moment of excitement.

Some guys are really nice, they cook for you and treat you as if you're the only one but behind you they're doing stuffs that you won't expect they'd be doing. True love is extinct. Being faithful and loyal is gone from humanity. I salute to those who can stay that way and just have one person in their life. Seriously most of the guys nowadays really cannot make it.

Nerds are sexy and attractive, with spectacles, being fair and tall and with a hot body as a bonus. If I ever see that kind of guy I think i'll drool in front of him immediately. Maybe it's just me that couldn't find a good one when everyone else is already living happily ever after.